Hey yall, I wanted to take some time and write about some stuff since I don't utilize this site for little blog posts, I guess. I doubt a ton of people will read this but that's aight lol. I've been thinking about my output of artwork and how inconsistent I am with submitting drawings I deem to be of high quality, works that meet my own expectations for myself. Making cool art of my own characters and bringing pieces of the world I've created in my mind to fruition is no easy task, and that's becoming more and more apparent as time progresses and I become busier with other stuff like college work and just generally keeping myself together.

Since I started sharing my works online and not just within a close circle of friends I've begun to find myself constantly comparing myself to other artists, and even doubting my own worth as a creator because of it... I've also spent way too long subconsciously building perfectionist tendencies when it comes to things like my linework and composition, which also severly affected the rate at which I complete and share my drawings. I guess it's not like my end goal was to ever be the greatest artist to ever draw furry OCs, and have a ton of people I don't personally know admire my works online, but it's not like I don't wish I could fulfill my own expectations of what a good, consistent artist is and also be like the creators I admire lol. With that being said, I would like to make it known that I do very much appreciate the friends I have made recently, and anyone who simply enjoys the drawings I put out right now... I might not be able to develop any sizable projects of my own or anything right now, but it is nice to know that others can see the specks of ideas I manage to scribble onto a digital canvas and really jive with what they see.

But I suppose this really is only the beginning of something... what that thing may be, I'm not sure. But I don't think I could ever being myself to quit drawing entirely, there's just an underlying passion that I can't extinguish just yet. Fanned flames that bellow with an intensity that I'm sure other creatives can attest to, but I think I just need to chill with how much I'm influenced by externally (constant output to appease a social media algorithm, bothering to keep up with trends, creation with the goal of appealing to others before myself) lest I completely burn myself out! I guess it can just be a bit tricky to see where your priorities lie with the constant onslaught of quality artwork being put out and big numbers being brought in from other people lol. But yeah! I find Newgrounds to be a place of solace from most of that, and I find it really nice that this site truly has everything, by everyone. I <3 Newgrounds, I want to contribute something of my own to this site one day, like a site skin or participating in a collab or something. Anyway that's basically it thanks for reading this gang